It has been so long since I have updated my journal and I apologize my lovlies…
I have been dealing with my recent memory loss and have finally come to terms with it I think. I often wonder what is so hazy in my mind. What experiences have been erased? Renata says that I asked for these memories to be gone. I asked to have that few weeks erased from my memory. But I can’t help but feel that a certain thought – no a certain feeling that had been erased went much much further back than that.
I wonder what did I do that was so wrong that I simply wanted it gone. What had been done to me?
In any case – what is done is done. I must live with it and move on. It would be easier though if certain members of our family could still look me in the eye…